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Oh wow!  Today’s Kabbalah’s Daily Tune Up really hit home:

There was a time, before you were born, when people didn’t make the connection between the dumping of toxic waste in the ocean and thousands of people becoming seriously ill from eating ocean fish.

It seemed as if a plague had hit. It was scary. People felt as if something awful was suddenly happening to them, something over which they had no control.

Eventually, through careful research and investigation, the connections between the toxic dumping, the fish, and the illnesses were made. Cleanup efforts began, and people stopped getting sick.

Chaos is the misperception that there are no connections. In fact, everything is connected. Everything.

Today, remember everything you do starts with you and ends with the world. Think before you speak or act. Your actions and words have everlasting effects.

It reminds me of the pebble thrown in the pond and the far reaching ripples.  And how a tiny insect at the edge of the pond knows not what caused the ripple that knocked him from his perch.  But make no mistake, there is a reason, there is ALWAYS a reason, even if we can’t fathom it.  It reminds me that we truly are ALL ONE.

What a timely and powerful reminder!

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Today from my Daily Kabbalah Tune Up email:

Judging from emails I’ve been getting from students, there are some of us who feel like we have never experienced ‘the Light.’

Let me tell you that you have. We all have, even though it may be fleeting.

Think of the moment you put the final touches on a project that you fiercely believed in, one that took lots of time and effort to complete. That rush of a job well done is the Light.

Or how about that time you thought of someone and they called just at that moment. That too is the Light. Or when you get a great idea or answer. That too is the Light.

So you have touched the Light. The more you look for it, the more you will find it.

Today, find the Light in everything you are doing. It’s there. Allow yourself to recognize it.

Have a delightful day.

Isn’t this wonderful?  The idea that we are continually “touching the Light”, except we just don’t know that we are.  There are many times where I know I’ve touched the light, but there are a few times that stand out with brilliance for me.

The first was soon after my ex-husband and I arrived in the UK.  I was feeling really down, homesick and bluesy and we were out with some friends we had just become friendly with.  They took us on a gentle hike, up a hill somewhere.  At the top we stood, looking down into the valley, almost entirely surrounded by magnificently tall pine trees.  As we stood there, I finally felt able to breathe deeply again and I took great big gulping breathes of the sweet pine scented air.  And then I felt this sense of peace pervading my body.  I felt like the trees were breathing life into me, blowing out the melancholy.  I felt my soul start to sing again.  And I felt tears of joy.  What sweet relief that the debilitating sadness had left me!  I kept saying over and over again, “Oh my gosh!  This is soul food!” (my companions thought I was funny and just laughed at me), but I recognized that I was having an intensely spiritual experience.  I later came to realize that those particular tears, were the tears I would experience every time I connected that deeply to the Light.  That was the very first time in my life that I experienced God (or The Divine) and it amused me no end that it was through nature and not through pompous churches and so-called church leaders.

The second was through Reiki.  I cannot remember the exact time sequence, but it was some months after I had completed my Reiki I course and I was doing the prescribed self-treatment.  It was also at a time when although I had developed some sense of energy, I was no where near as sensitive to energy as I am now.  So there I was doing my self-treatment, which until now had not been too remarkable and would usually just send me to sleep, and I had my hands over my chest and heart and suddenly that same sense of pervading peace and calm that I experienced from the trees, filled me.  It is a difficult sensation to describe and “filled me”  sounds to inadequate, but it really did fill me until I felt like I was completely filled, even overflowing, almost like I became one with the peace, like there was no lines and edges to my body, like I was just an energy mass.  This time though, there was also a sense of ecstasy and intense joy, I think because I recognized what was happening.  And again, the quiet joyful tears.

It is amazing to me that these 2 brief experiences have been so life changing for me.  They sustain me now, many years later, when I sometimes feel no hope and want to curl up in a ball and die.  I KNOW that I can reach that peace again, that “this too shall pass” and that I just have to hold out a little while longer and get just a little clearer.  And I KNOW without a doubt that there is “something else”, more than just this physical world we see. And I also KNOW that there are many paths to the Light and that no one is better or worse than the other.  It really is what works for the individual.

I feel so very blessed to have had these experiences and been able to develop these absolute knowings.

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Last night hubby and I were sitting at the kitchen table and we heard the unmistakable sounds of a death cry. Uh oh, our huntress cat, Kati, was at it again!

So we go outside and see her stalking something in the bushes outside our back door. Scattering movement…and in the dark, I saw something scoot behind our trash cans. “Weird, it’s plump-ish, like a hamster. Ahhh…maybe it’s a baby rabbit?”. We eventually give up trying to rescue whatever it is, because it keeps scurrying away, which is understandable since Kati is still hunting and playing with it.

Settling down at the kitten table again, we hear the death cries again (more like squeals actually).

Baby Bunny being held and cuddled against me (Apologies for the bad photo. It was taken with Hubby's iPhone.)

Baby Bunny being held and cuddled against me (Apologies for the bad photo. It was taken with Hubby's iPhone.)

This time hubby goes out and he finds the most adorable baby rabbit ever, in the middle of our back yard lawn – Kati’s plaything. He brought him inside and I went all gooey over it. His one eye had a pin prick of blood on the lower edge and his one ear has a streak of blood, but other than that he seemed ok – stunned, but ok. So I cuddle him for a while, wrapping him in my t-shirt. He is so still, that I worried about whether he had internal injuries, but when hubby picked him up, he gives a good strong kick. So I think his stillness was just him settling into the comfort and warm of my t-shirt and hands. Awww…

Not sure what to do now that he was safe, we turned to trusty Google and we find the best advice is to remove any predators, aka cats, and return him to the yard. He still had a white patch on his head, which apparently meant he was young enough that he might still have been nursing, and wild rabbits are notoriously difficult to hand raise. So we put him back outside on the lawn, hoping he could find his nest and that he would be ok. And locked our cats inside.

Unfortunately, a little while later I went out the front to get the mail and Kati escaped! We tried catching her, but she was having none of it and disappeared. By this time the baby bunny had moved from his middle of the lawn spot too. We could do nothing, other than hope everything would be ok.

Well, this morning we found out that it was not ok. Kati found him. And ate his little ears and feet 😦

Now today I find myself looking at my sweet Kati and feeling this weird mixture of love and revulsion. She played with, then killed, then ate that sweet little baby bunny, who had snuggled in my hands just hours (or maybe even minutes) earlier. Oh, I know it’s just nature etc. But still, it’s a bitter pill to swallow. Of course I cannot be mad at her, she was just doing what she knows. She will not change her behavior, nor can I expect her too. It is me who has to come to some kind of peace about it, not her.

It reminds me that we too are driven by natural instints. Instincts I don’t believe psychologists have even begun to truly understand. It reminds me that when people in my life act in ways I find repulsive or when I just don’t get them, that I cannot be mad at them and expect them to change. All I can do, is accept them for who they are, find compassionate love for them and set up boundaries for myself, to protect myself from their natural instincts.

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Today from my Daily Kabbalah Tune Up email:

If you were to never buy a book on Kabbalah, or take a class online, or attend one of our live events or holidays, if you were only reading this one email and I had just this one chance to share with you a secret that would change your life, it would be this:

Like attracts like.

God, from a kabbalist’s perspective, is not a bearded man on a mountain top or a judgmental omnipotent being, but it’s a force of sharing and concern and love. When you quiet down your thoughts and step away from your feelings – and just radiate concern for others – you attain affinity with God.

And the moment you create this connection, you are tapping into this force. This is where fulfillment comes from.

That’s why love thy neighbor was the revelation of a technology, not a moral ideal!

Today, be God. Be thoughtful of what others are going through. Be happy for others’ happiness. Be kind to people for no good reason. Be the creative force you can be. Everything else will take care of itself.

I like it…”a force of sharing and concern and love”. That appeals much more to me that a bearded man on a mountain top, which unfortunately is the vision of God I came away with from my childhood days. And what a truly AWESOME concept. Like attracts like – technically, not morally. It fits in very well with karma, Hermetic Philosophy and The Secret.

I would add only one more other thing to this. Be kind to YOURSELF. It’s no good going round doing good for others whilst simultaneously having low self-esteem and self-hatred. Because that too will attract like. And your life will be in choas and you won’t understand why because “you’re doing all this good stuff and nothing good is happening”…ummmmm.

So today be kind to yourself. Be gentle with yourself. And meditatively tap into the force.

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Huh? You’re saying? What’s going on? This is not a new blog ? But it certainly looks new-ish, doesn’t it?!

That’s because I changed the name of the blog and the header image. But same blog, same person, different look.

Sorry that I’ve been away for a while. I do that every now and again…disappear from the blog-o-sphere. It’s good for the soul, to lead an offline life once in a while 🙂 I guess one would normally tell their readers that though, first, before they disappear. Oops!

So what’s with the new name and header image, you ask. I decided ‘Meandering Ramblings’ no longer fitted. It aptly described where I was in my life when I first started this blog, but no longer. I am far more focused now. No more dreamily floating around, seeing where life would take me. Now I have a goal. And that goal is THE LIGHT. Well, actually, it’s been that for a few years now, I’ve just not ever overtly stated it. I am now overtly stating it – and going for it.

My life is a journey, with the sole purpose of reaching THE LIGHT or Enlightenment. Everything I do, consciously or unconsciously is directed towards that goal.

Saying that though, not all of what you will read here will be high-falutin spiritual speak. Much of it will be about my day-to-day living, the triumphs and tribulations thereof. But then again, it is my belief that the lessons and growth we (I) seek are around us all the time, we just have to notice them and then learn them. So of course my greatest growth with come from my every day living!

It would be lovely to have you along for the ride 🙂

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Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about religion and spiritually again. It’s a topic I find fascinating and it’s never very far from my mind. This time, my musings were triggered by this post about Deepak Chopra’s new book by David W. Boles’ Urban Semiotic. And it’s just been continued by me starting an 8 week course about a book called The Kybalion – A Study of The Hermetic Philosophy of Ancient Egypt and Greece. I have lots to say on the topic of religion and spirituality, so I might be writing a few posts about it in the future.

To start with, I will just mention two concepts I came across today, whilst researching the Blue Star Wiccan tradition and following the resulting link trails.

Concept 1 – Personal Responsibility
From this article talking about Halloween and Paganism:

Though paganism is often confused with religions that worship the devil or perform satanic rituals, most pagans do not recognize Satan at all…”There’s no evil spirit that makes people do bad things,” … “We’re responsible for ourselves, whatever we choose.”…”Those who describe themselves as a pagan or Wiccan … may hold beliefs that not everyone may hold, but the same can be said for people of all different religions.”

Yes! Yes! Yes! I cannot say YES! strongly enough!
Paganism does not recognize Satan is the Christian sense. Paganism does not recognize God in the Christian sense. There is not the concept of good and evil beings who decide our fate. It is ALL about personal responsibility. For someone like me, who comes from a Christian background, that is simultaneously terrifying and liberating. No devil or hell to worry about? Hell yeah! No god to “forgive my sins”? Oh no! You mean I, and I alone, am responsible for me? On this huge planet? In this huge universe? Holy moley! Excuse the intended pun.

I like it. It sits very well with me. Especially considering one of my other beliefs…that we create our own reality.

Please note that article I linked to is not very well written. It seems to portray Paganism as a region. It’s not. But Wicca is. Wicca is part of paganism. But paganism is not a religion. It is more of an umbrella term, used to describe a plethora of earth-based, often polytheist religions. The article also says that pagans and Wiccans do not practice magic. That is wholly incorrect. Wicca almost always incorporate magical practices (witchcraft) into their religion. Pagans may also practice magic. For a fuller description of Paganism, visit the Wikipedia page.

Concept 2 – Religious Freedom
From a Blue Star Wiccan webpage:

Our only animosity toward Christianity, or toward any other religion or philosophy-of-life, is to the extent that its institutions have claimed to be “the only way” and have sought to deny freedom to others and to suppress other ways or religious practice and belief.

Again, yes! Yes! Yes!
One of the reasons why I am drawn to paganism, and wicca to a lesser degree, is exactly this point. These people freely accept anyone in their circles. There is no judgment. No one path is the correct path. This is not only recognized, but considered a strength and incorporated into practices. I cannot stand, let me say that again, I CANNOT STAND! intolerance of any kind. The sheer arrogance of it, simply blows my mind. And I will never, ever align myself with a group which claims to have “the one true path” and negates thousands of other people.

Last year I attended a conference entitled “Between the Worlds“, which was a convergence of many different esoteric religions. Most were of pagan origins. But there was also an esoteric Christian group there. My heart was warmed to see such co-operation between traditionally opposing groups. We all have something to learn from each other.

My hubby has a website called www.aPath.org which provides inspiration and resources for the pagan community. He has a disclaimer there, which illustrates this concept brilliantly:

Nothing here is “the real truth” or “the one true path”. Each person has their “own true path” to walk in life, and what rings true for one person may not be right for someone else. I simply present what rings true for me in the hopes that it may help others to find their own paths from the landmarks I’ve found along my own. I can’t make this much more clear than the name of this site: “A Path”. Not “The Path”. Just “A Path.”

Another illustration of a heart-warming exchange of ideas between supposedly opposing religions was provided in Sabrinamari’s LiveJournal. Sabrina is a friend and Wiccan priestess who was blogging about pagans and money. And a devoutly religious Christian commented on her post. Which then inspired a further post by Sabrina on cross-religion monetary thoughts.

Well folks…that’s my 2 concepts for the day.


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